Monday, January 30, 2012

Monday, Monday.....

I read a statement this morning in my Made to Crave devotional that was so profound.  This is what it said, "Don't let people's compliments go to your head, and don't let their criticisms go to your heart. The degree to which you do either of these things is the degree to which you'll be ruled by what other people think of you."

I would encourage you to read it again. I read that sentence probably three times to wrap my brain around it so it could sink in.  Even though this quote is really not particularly related to weight and healthy eating, I though it was so true.

It's SO easy to let the things people say, or to let the things we only think people think of us, really get us down and defeat us.  Like the saying goes, "he who angers you controls you." I believe it's also true that he who makes you feel defeated and discouraged controls you whether it's about your appearance, your weight, you personality, or whatever.

When I decided to write this blog, my decision and comittment to change my ways to be more healthy was exposed.  I felt a bit vulnerable.  Even though I don't have a huge following or a bazillion blog readers, I can't turn back now.  I feel more accountable to uphold my decision, and I needed that.

So, I will try my best to do what Lysa said and not "let people's compliments go to [my] head, and [not] let their criticisms go to [my] heart. The degree to which [I] do either of these things is the degree to which [I'll] be ruled by what other people think of [me]."  My goal should be to please my Savior, live this life for Him, and try to take care of this body He's given me as long as I am able.  In doing so, I believe I will grow closer to Him and have more energy to serve Him. 

Glad that when we get to Heaven we will be able to feast at His table and not have to worry about exercise!!!



Monday, January 23, 2012

Made to Crave Monday

It's time for me to post again about this journey I am on with eating issues and all that jazz!

Things have been going pretty well.  I have not been as active as I would like to be (the motivation to exercise is still very lacking!), but I have seen some results so that gives me motivation to keep on keepin' on.  Don't get me wrong, these are VERY MINOR changes, but hey it's still a little something!

I have been reading the Made to Crave book and devotional and getting a lot out of it. 

Here are some of the things I have read recently that have really stuck with me:

From the devotional, Lysa writes: "The best thing we can do in these triggered moments (she is speaking of triggers that make you feel the need to eat/divulge in something unhealthy) is to pause.  Pause and ask ourselves, 'Do I want to eat this right now because I need nourishment or because I'm feeling empty emotionally or spiritually?'" p. 31  And if we are truly hungry, then I can make a healthy choice!

This is so true.  I am still trying to discover WHY I want to eat unhealthy things at times or what 'triggers' me to do so, but the only thing I can come up with so far is that I do it out of habit.  I just get the taste of it in my mind and it just sounds so good and my body craves it, but it may not be because I am hungry.  It may just be because I like the feeling it gives me.  You know that eating sweets releases dopamine in your brain and your body says "oh man, that tastes so good - I want some more!" That's why we like sweets.  Then, 30 minutes later you feel like totally gross.  So, I need to do what Lysa suggests and just pause.  Maybe that would save me some calories and yuck-o feelings later! :)  Thanks to Dr. Travis from 'The Doctors' tv show for teaching me how my brain reacts to sugar!

Here's one more thing that I found really great in the book: "And while I fully realize my temple may not be God's grandest dwelling, I want to lift up to the Lord whatever willingness I have each day and dedicate my exercise as a gift to Him and a gift to myself." p. 94.  Somebody may think, "wow, giving God my exercise is a gift - that's far fetched," but hey, we need to be good stewards of this body He's given us so we can work for Him and serve Him better!

Anyway, this blog is for me.  I need it to hold myself accountable and to keep myself moving in the right direction.  I am ready to start making more healthy choices and to start taking better care of myself.  It is time.  And after all, I am a Jesus girl who is NOT defined by the number on my scale!  :)

BB

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

New Purpose: Made to Crave

So this morning I had a revelation that was no doubt from the Author and Creator Himself.  I have decided to use this blog as an accountability of sorts for myself.

You see, I am tired of the way I look!  Others say, "Oh you look fine."  "You've had 2 babies," or "I don't think you look overweight."  But the fact is that I am overweight and no matter what you say (or what my sweet husband says) I won't feel good about the way I look until I like what I see in the mirror and feel the way I need to feel in my heart.

I bought a book a while back called Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst.  I started reading it, but found myself not relating to the book because I felt I had no issues with food.  But oh I was deceived and wrong.

Turns out I don't really have any thing that triggers me to wanting food except the fact that I feel the need to eat something sweet ALL the time.  After meals, when I want a snack, when I am stressed.... so yeah, there is a food issue.  To put it bluntly it sounds kind of like a sugar addiction!  Yeah!  I said it! LOL :)

So, last week I started on this physical and spiritual journey.  I felt energized, walked/exercised WAY more than often, and felt good about myself.  I even saw a little bit of victory in the weight loss department due to the fact that I was counting calories, trying to avoid junk, and exercising more.  THAT was last week.

Fastforward to this week: not so easy.  Turns out, last week I was totally depending on myself and the devil just let it ride and let me slip by.  This week, he has been on my back with vengance.  I have had little sleep (thanks to a nasty cold visiting Caroline) and my favorite visitor decides to greet me leaving me feeling tired, hormonal, and really loving the fact that I am a woman for a few days.  Sigh.... yes, this week is harder.  I guess I decided I need God MORE this week than I did last week.  He is the only one who can help me on this journey and to be successful.

The past few days, I have already found myself wanting to be complacent and just throw it all out the window, but no, this time it has to be different.  I want God to "Unsettle Me" like Lysa talks about in the Made to Crave devotional.  I want to be unsettled about my weight and spiritual issues and battles until they are resolved, and it ends up that I am closer to the One who gave me life.

So, that's what I needed to say.  I hope to update this blog more often so I can get all of my thoughts down to where I can see and read how I feel.  You see, I am not a good journal type of person.  I can type A LOT faster! Ha!  I can also quickly change what I type if I don't like what it says, AND I am a math teacher so English and writing are not my fortes.

To my faithful bloggie follower (You know who you are Katie!), pray for me as I try to go through this journey that I would depend on God for strength and would in the end have a healthier lifestyle and learn to crave God more than food (sugar)!

Brittany